May Have To End

They may have to end it all By putting me in jail. Or I may have to put an end to them And end up in jail. I don’t have much courage Or I’d be able to make a plan Or make a break for it Or remake myself Or insist on another take— Anyway, just get somewhere I could Buy my way out of here once and for all! I could abide the horror of loneliness If only I could avoid how long it is. I guess that’s the Hell they speak of. It’s failure to start that pins me here as I am, So it would seem a little wild to see myself turned After all this while into some kind of sucker for success. Unlike those Dostoyevsky characters I used to read, I don’t see anyone around I should murder yet Except of course myself And that’s an unpleasant option. rcs. Current draft: 2/18/2010 Created on 1/17/2010 8:50 PM