Friday, February 19, 2010

May Have To End

They may have to end it all
By putting me in jail.
Or I may have to put an end to them
And end up in jail.
I don’t have much courage
Or I’d be able to make a plan
Or make a break for it
Or remake myself
Or insist on another take—
Anyway, just get somewhere I could
Buy my way out of here once and for all!
I could abide the horror of loneliness
If only I could avoid how long it is.
I guess that’s the Hell they speak of.

It’s failure to start that pins me here as I am,
So it would seem a little wild to see myself turned
After all this while into some kind of sucker for success.
Unlike those Dostoyevsky characters I used to read,
I don’t see anyone around I should murder yet
Except of course myself
And that’s an unpleasant option.


Current draft: 2/18/2010
Created on 1/17/2010 8:50 PM

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Abandon hope, all ye who enter here! (At least put on your socks and pants.)