Cheery Blue Hat

I have never been a person to wake up very quickly. I have always needed some lead-time before I could count on being very sure-footed or very alert. Since having diabetes, I have now added being able to see well as one of the things I can’t do without some lead-time in the mornings! My eyesight has been getting better; both I and the retina specialist I saw yesterday can testify to that. I read up on the Internet about Kenalog, the medication that was injected behind the retina a couple of months ago and it’s talked about as if it’s not effective in all cases, so I guess I am lucky that it’s been working out for me. The medicine will continue to work on me for a couple of months more, the doctor said, and that’s good. As to whether he’ll ever treat the other (right) eye is yet to be seen (ha!). Anyway, the eye doctor will determine that after this left eye has finished improving. All this is, of course, very important. I’m far too visual a person to think about life with poor vision. I suppose that hardly anyone would feel any different.

Still, worry about my eyesight is something that’s been in the background, not in the foreground. I’ve been most worried lately about my lack of appetite and weight loss. I’m nearly 100 lbs. lighter than I used to be a couple of years ago and 40 lbs. of it was lost in the last few months—say, since the end of August. When my primary physician said he was concerned about the most recent 5 lb. loss, I told him gleefully that I’d actually gained 1 lb. back! Of course, it’s still a problem, but us guys wasting away look for cheer in the smallest of changes! He gave me some kind of antihistamine that serves to increase appetite and I hope that works some magic. I did manage to eat almost all of a big breakfast at IHOP yesterday! Lately I haven’t eaten all of anything! Time will tell.

I’ve had a new blue hat hanging on the bedroom wall for some time now, waiting for some of the other hats to wear out. I decided last week I’d start wearing the cheery light blue hat, mostly to cheer myself up, but also just in case I wear out first. This way I at least get to wear it some!

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